It's good to see you again, Lou, and I am pleased that you are now able to move forward with this guilty verdict closing the door on that aspect in your life.  He will now spend several years behind bars and you can make plans for a happier future for yourself.  All the best to you in your future endeavours and may you always be touched by sunshine in what ever you do.

Oh, and no need to apologise for not being around of late   We understand and hope that you can spend more time here now that you're entering a new chapter in your life.

Thanx guys-i am still in shock-once the therapy is over i plan to leave london and move to the coast for a quiet new life.

need to be weaned off all this medication which really fuddles me  lol    hope to get back to my old self some time soon  

Yeah, one step at a time, you'll get there.... and with best wishes from everyone here.

Loukeeya!   My Dear Dear Friend!  Have been searching for you and hope you read this.  I never forgot about the trial and have worried so much about you.  Thanks to Google I found you here and finally learned the full story of your horrible ordeal.  

Correction, I did learn a lot from another forum you posted to but looked like you'd lost contact there.

Being so far away in the USA plus being an invalid I don't know how much help I can be to you, but hopefully my sincere affection will come across and be a little help and soothing to your soul.

Babe, whenever you become overwhelmed by the pain, remember what I am going to say here.  Maybe my words will do a bit to help you realize that horrid person did not really damage your beautiful soul.  In fact, you are a saint because you turned your suffering into love for others.  You never (that I could see) wallowed in self-pity to the point where you lost your compassion for others.  In fact I feel as though because you were suffering you did all you could to help others be happy.  I imagine you think I'm just saying these things to make you feel better, but look back at things I've written to you before I ever knew about your trauma.  I was always singing your praises and thanking you for helping me.

I know pain, Sweetheart, slowly losing the ability to live my life plus being close to death too many times.  So I know a good person who loves others despite her pain when I see her.  

Oh, I can't say all I want to say here because this isn't the right place.  Please get in touch with me unless you just do not have energy to give to me.  I don't want to hurt you by my wanting to be in touch.

I'll be here for you no matter what.

Rita 

this site has private messaging..... just click on her name....a red box will come up to alert her next time she logs into the forums... might be the best way to go... 

Nice, syd. Nice!